My body has adopted itself and it has gone to protect my creativity as a soldier would hide deeply in a bunker.
Awareness is subject to our free-will and choices, with an element of desire that presents itself in the simplest of ways. We can choose to be aware or we can choose not to be.
Nothing can keep you from being focused. It is only our lack of attention which keeps us distracted. Many of us have been distracted for years and distraction in itself can become a pastime.
Recognizing myself in the mirror should be simple, but it was not. I didn’t like what I saw. It wasn’t as I had imagined, and that was the problem. I didn’t hate what I saw, I just didn’t like it.
There is a truth that every person struggles to see. In simple terms, it is his or her own self. This isn’t to say that any person isn’t capacitated to see him or herself; it means that they choose not too. Instead, like a fantasy, fabricated by, but not found in the actual mind, is a concept of self I call the Shell.