Putting yourself down, isn’t ever funny especially when in turns into an unconscious habit of self depreciating. What’s the difference between self depreciating vs. self deprecating? How to stop self-deprecating.
Everything about you screams what you believe. Our beliefs are constructed from the root up. Perhaps, you’ve been too busy broadcasting your own beliefs to realize that you’re not listening to others. It’s normal but it doesn’t have to be that way.